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I did good, until I couldn't.

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  My goodness. My jaw and face has disappeared with the tooth and bone loss! C2019 I guess it's all making sense about my health issues. You would think one doctor in 60 years would know this! Around 1972, I was diagnosed by biopsy of a form of scleroderma, Morphea.  An autoimmune thing At that time, the doctors all.. dermatologist, ob, PC, all saw it as an early death.   We wanted a baby.  I was afraid to get pregnant and they said it was hereditary.  I was worried about Shannan like you can't imagine. Maybe that's why I couldn't discipline her.  They all said it shows up at early adulthood. I got the first lesion around 19.   Talking with Dr. Robert Jacobson, I decided to let her live her life without a perceived handicap.   So that's twice I lied to her, isn't it? Oh my. I still would have made that choice.  I must have been about 30 when they realized the come of age thing was wrong.  I'm glad she didn't have to go thr...

You are running out of time to get on the right side of history!

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  What the hell! What does it take...  Losing what you love?! Wake up! Complete destruction of a native people!! HELLO! Share this! Amazing article reveals this tragedy. The public doesn't know the environmental and cultural catastrophe the Biden/Harris foreign invasion is causing, complete destruction of an indigenous people! Where are the environmental zealots???!! "The Biden-Harris administration lavished millions in tax money on United Nations agencies and non-governmental advocacy groups (NGOs) that descended on this region to ease the burdens of Darien Gap travel. In the process, they have trampled arguably the most vulnerable and important stakeholder of them all in Panama: the Embera-Wounnaan tribe, whose 19,000 people happened to be living smack in the middle of this immigration hurricane" Chief Vianide Cunapa, Chief Jose Anilo Barrigon, and Chief Leonide Cunampia (left to right) of the Embera have warned the Biden-Harris administration that their tribe is in da...

The greatest mistake of my life

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  The greatest mistake I ever made. September 9, 2020 Bugs and I drove back roads waiting for the freeway to open and to get news if my neighborhood . Darrell kept texting and asked me to wait for him in Gold hill...I waited and waited. I tried to find someplace to go. I tried to find someone to take Bugs until I could find somewhere to go. The last thing I wanted was to be stuck with some mean SOB that I didn't even want to date! But everyone else had an excuse... allergies to the cat.... etc. I thought about finding a home for Bugs and tried to bribe people. I simply couldn't find anything! No one would help. I had a phone without internet And had to go to Walmart to buy minutes. At one point after I found out my home was gone and none of my family would help me for just one night , I thought about just driving off the cliff. ! There were no motels in the entire state! And that's exactly what I wish I had done. Death would have been so much kinder than the abuse I suffere...

One strange pussycat!

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  Dinkys tank.  Don't touch his tank! He's a doll. I got so lucky! NOW a vet wants $57 to make an appointment over a month away,  after I waited 5 fucking months. Seriously. People have gone bat shit crazy.  That shit used to be illegal! Anyway. He's a sweetheart. Bengal.  Little guy.  Check this out.  He has whiskers growing out his back! I noticed him getting upset with his back and wouldn't let you touch it.  Stiff white whiskers that stick up! It's the wild coming out! You can see it on the hair on his tummy. Everything says don't touch! His fangs are much bigger than Bugs.   He's a good kid  I love him and hope someone gives him a good home! You won't be sorry! But NEVER call him "fat ass".  That really pisses him off! Lol  Handsome boy! Crazy smart.  Asian leopard cat and American tabby. 

Linda

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graduation from Medford senior high This picture is supposed to be with prior post I cannot make this little phone work! I'm glad you don't have to deal with this electronic bull shit! I miss you so much!  I messed up so bad! I needed you Linda. My Dinny Do! When I was little I called her that! She taught me everything! She was all I had! We all depended on her! I miss you!

Aug. 27, 1973 we said goodbye to my beautiful sister Linda

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Linda Lou Nix Graber Randleman Mama and Linda age 5 at my first home in Falfurrias, Texas January 1948. _____ 3 weeks later we came to Oregon! This was the day that destroyed so many lives. Odd... because I remember it being a different day the 23 or 24th.. I'm getting old. But she wasn't old or sick. She was beautiful and brilliant and good! 29 years old with 3 children to support alone. She was working and studying to be an xray tech at Oregon institute of technology in Klamath falls. She drove over that day to shop for school, visit at our mothers home.   I was at the doctor's office with my sweet baby girl, for a check up for her first day of school, thinking how exciting it was! I remember standing at the counter writing a check when suddenly a horrible wave of dizziness and fear gripped me.. I ripped the check.  We drove home, it was late afternoon and before long the phone rang.  My poor mother's voice was hysterical as she told me that the sick Sonofabitch my...

We live in interesting times!! Thank you Robert Kennedy Jr.

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 He did the right thing.  He's a patriot. Thank you, Sir.  You were treated like crap by Biden/Harris and the power behind the DNC.  I shook your father's hand the day before he was killed.  I was a new mom at 18 in Medford Oregon where your dad's plane stopped on the way to California. You were just a kid.  https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&opi=89978449&url=https://www.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3DOymtxkKu5MU&ved=2ahUKEwjkub-L_4uIAxUrFDQIHTuXN0sQwqsBegQIEBAG&usg=AOvVaw3-GBcDKDRrR9DXJjfb4Yqh I found a video of that day. Joann Holmes Wells and I and Shannan are in the crowd. 

Chronic pancreatitis and psoriatic arthritis

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  There she is.. should have never been born. Heredity us killing me.   Essential tremor, bad pancreas, Bones like glass.  Always something broken I should consider myself lucky that I have lasted so long. I went to ER the first time 40 years ago.  It took another 30 for the IDIOT doctors to figure out! By then it's too late. It's my way of life every day. I hate being skinny and frail! So tired of the pain.  Ways to keep pancreas clean naturally: Reducing sugar-rich food. Drinking plenty of water. Taking small but frequent meals. Avoid taking alcohol and smoking. Taking low animal fat. Taking lentils, clear soups, lean meats, almond milk, etc. are suggested Lol! I've been there for 20 years.  TIRED I'M SO GOD-DAMNED TIRED OF THIS Mama died if pancreatic cancer.   What happens when the pancreas starts shutting down. Malnutrition. With both acute and chronic pancreatitis, the pancreas may not produce enough enzymes for the digestive system. Th...

We are out of time

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  Being racist is a mental illness I believe.. any violent group think is. Culture is a different things! Biden/Harris regime has imported people who hate you!  They have rights you don't have! Your rights are given by your creator! Aliens rights are given by the government. Are you paying attention to who is winning??! The aliens, crimaliens. Government controls your rights now. This is what we all let happen! Don't engage these invaders! Don't get near them. The good ones are being used by the bad ones! Wake up! 85,000 unaccompanied children since Biden Harris that they have completely lost track of! They didn't even question the monsters who held them! Trump demanded DNA before releasing a child to anyone coming over the border! Understand! The single men, criminals automatically get in with a no child! Some children come alone! They are being given to ANYONE! THE BIDEN REGIME CAN'T FIND THEM! BIDEN AND HARRIS ARE HUMAN TRAFFICKING! CHILD SEX SLAVES. Do you think...

Park mgr continued 3

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Thats what the neighbors yard looked like before they finally sprayed. Don insisted that I buy gravel for their driveway!  I never use it and they are always parked there.   W hen I first moved in, this strip which is the neighbors yard, was waist high in weeds. It had been covered with wood chips the size of my arm! 2021I paid Don to spray it $20 cash because I couldn't keep it out of my yard.  From then on he insists that is my responsibility!   The neighbors are the only ones who use it and I am sick of taking care of it. They water the weeds then mow and destroyed my skirting and water my deck! I asked politely over and over to just kill it and cover with rock.  Finally Don did it for them.  This is why he's mad.   The other neighbor is as bad but if there's a man in the house Don does anything they want.  I watched Don kick up rocks from his mower and make holes in my front skirting so I surrounded my front with rocks so they c...

Park mgr continued

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 This is last winter when he pulled out of the lot across the street in his artic cat and drove into my ditch and destroyed my culvert.  I had just sent the owner this! I never said anything until the last time he attacked me and he called me a liar. I had a huge empty spot next to my door that I wanted to make a driveway. I said I would pay for everything. It's only 3 steps instead of 6 on the other side and much more convenient.  Don Snyder, mgr said NO! Threw a fit, so I planted instead! WTH difference should it make? People can't park where he insists. It's not wide enough! Where I wanted a driveway What I am stuck with..no one will use it! This is the culvert he destroyed.

Park manager makes me want to commit suicide

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  This is him spraying my plants that I have replaced twice! He refused to spray past them. Weeds green as can be! Plants dead. He's a bully and I am tired of crying every day because of him.  Big fat ignorant old man. I'm too sick to move  He's belligerant to any single old woman. Yesterday he's right in front of me, so I said hello only to be verbally attacked.

William Cicero Nix -Daddy

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  6/1/1893-11/2/63 He was in his 60s by the time I was born. I was the youngest of his 3 marriages and 8 children.  His only son and a daughter both died young of heart disease. He never got over that loss. I was anything but wanted.  Typical of his running away from problems, when I was 15 he put our house in Medford up for sale, packed our only car and decided it was time to move to Garrison, Colorado where he died. It cost my mom and I everything to return his body and have a funeral. She didn't drive or have a job and was ill.  We went years without a car. My knee was dislocated in PE class playing tennis. For 8 weeks I walked 2 miles to and from school with a cast from my ankle to my ass while the school bus passed me and everyone laughed and pointed. Then I walked to the grocery store.  My family NEVER TOOK GOVERNMENT AID. NEVER! MAMA and I took in old dying people to pay the bills, mowed lawns, ironed, babysat... whatever it took to feed us. My dad was an...