An Anniversary of my life

  This describes most politicians... people who have no human conscience.  They kill babies, burn communities, kill Trump supporters and jail then because they can! I've waisted 35 years trying to explain human decency to my daughter.  She isn't capable. I'm so sorry I didn't walk away from you the first time you applauded some god-damned man abusing me. You were 13 and a spoiled brat. I'm sorry I didn't leave you both! But you know what!? No one else wanted you. I'm the only one.  Milich didn't even want his own son.  I'm sorry for the men I hooked up with.  I was a vulnerable child. I didn't have family who cared about me like you do! I got sick of hearing Dan Milich bitch at me for not aborting you!  You are sick. You blew it. You can't learn. Good bye Shannan.  Billie

 Used to be such a busy wonderful time! I would make costumes for all the grown kids and their kids. We had fabulous parties in the barn. Yes! I was involved in my children's lives. More than most of you! So go screw yourself. My son told me today that he loves me and hopes we can keep emailing.   I don't believe him.. where is he? 2 years! Why was I turned out on the streets alone afraid and sick!?? Until you fix this, nothing can change. YOU HAVE TO FIX IT! YOU BROKE IT EVERY DAY!  EVERY DAY!  Year after year. Please make it stop

  America!

  I just want to make it through this election and leave this tedious cruel world with Trump as president.  I have no right to ask for more.  It's been a hell of a run.  You are witnessing a remarkable alliance.

 

 

  The only escape is death.  I fear and welcome the day.  Your God will probably let me live to 100 so I can experience his hell long after I deserved relief! I can change nothing. I can't make abusers be honest.  I have no power.   Good bye. To Darrell, Rick, Alan, Art... all you narcissistic sociopaths shits.  The rest of you..go screw yourself.  Lol. Grew big tomatoes from seed..bigger than the pumpkin!! Summer is gone.  So is daylight.. now I get to have depression! I refuse to live through the holidays alone again.  No more! No more!

I ran across this...2006.  a decade of BULLSHIT! IGNORANT BULLSHIT! Time for you to admit what you have been doing! I'm a good woman! Never in your life did you witness bigotry on my part! How dare you bear false witness to your own mother, you foolish child! What have you been trying to prove?? I'm more fair than any human being you ever knew! I have fought discrimination all my life! What have you done?  Fought me! That's what.  You need to find out what the hell your need to destroy me is about! I'm done. In full! BTW...10 years before Trump. He listened!  Friday, July 14, 2006 "Grandma, do you hate Mexicans?" (photos - Marchs by illegal aliens and their promoters, Spring 2006, Various US Cities.) I, and everyone else, active in the illegal immigration debate has been accused of being racist, xenophobic, nationalist, right wing whacko, etc. Any sane person would, by now, let the tripe run off like water off a ducks back. We consider the source, and it usual...

  From my drunk abusive father to the violent, ignorant Rick Johnson.... None of us had a moral, decent man for a father. They were all haunted and too disturbed to be a parent! Except Darrell Wells. He's just a retard. An animal, nothing more.   They all ran out on us. They all lied and betrayed us. I didn't know what a good man was!  At least I grew up and saw it. Shannans way to deal with it, is to punish me and deny that she married a monster who lied to her about me, Dad, EVERYTHING.  Yes, we were all innocent children!  You aren't a child now. Grow up before you kill the only person who ever cared about you and your children! Place blame where it belongs! Who betrayed you???!