I am grateful

 




For my beautiful children and grandchildren. That they are safe and healthy and happy. If they find half the joy I did being in their lives, they'll be fine. 

I have to find a life without them. Saying that seems insane! Impossible! But I am going to try. 

My good neighbors refused to let me escape thanksgiving. They didn't take no as an answer.  

I've wondered about grandma Lena. After Linda left us, she didn't want to have holidays.  Every year..do you remember?

I'd get her a tree and we would go over and decorate. I couldn't imagine leaving my mother out of Christmas!  She always seemed appreciative but I wonder if I imposed.  At least we showed up.  Then we would take one to Mrs. Ray .

One year we gave boxes to a nursing home and mailed boxes to the kids in Serbia as we bombed them!!

I tried to instill benevolence in you. You seemed such happy children! How did I miss reality? That I was teaching you to hate me!?

I can smell grandma's potato rolls and sweet potatoes!

Shannan is the best pie maker ever in this family.. except maybe my sweet sister. You can't imagine how much alike they were..... some days in my head I have trouble separating them.   I fear losing my mind.

I am grateful I lasted this long. 1974 the doctors said I would never walk or mentally function again 

I wish you could imagine what I have been through all alone. 

Dad would laugh at me and say, " can you walk and chew gum at the same time". He said I was stupid. 

He would be making mincemeat pie and PEPPER DRESSING. LOL

I am grateful for my neighbors. 


I will learn to live again 

I am thankful for that chance. 

I wish someone could tell me how to let you all go. 

I will try! I know I must.

Good bye.

Happy Thanksgiving.

Be grateful.

Mom



Comments

  1. BNovember 28, 2024 at 3:08 PM

    I was doomed. It's a miracle I lasted this long. I wonder why!? I accomplished NOTHING

    Traumatic brain injury (TBI) increases the risk of neuropsychiatric disorders, particularly anxiety disorders. Yet, there are presently no therapeutic interventions to prevent the development of post-traumatic anxiety or effective treatments once it has developed.
    https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov ›

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  2. BDecember 1, 2024 at 6:32 PM

    Well, I cursed and my neighbor got all bent church lady. So I told her to get out of my house and MYOB.

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  3. BDecember 2, 2024 at 8:17 AM

    I wish I had a computer!!

    This is amazing.
    Please someone try it.

    If I could just hear or see you

    https://www.facebook.com/share/r/8Mso2yLLSb4SAoAm/?mibextid=rS40aB7S9Ucbxw6v

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  4. BDecember 5, 2024 at 6:19 AM

    My family hates me for standing up and protecting them but along the way I met amazing patriotic Americans and I will always be greatful to have stood beside them
    Roger Fredinburg, Jeff head, . So many.
    All gone. And what a loss

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