Later


 
It hurts so much

I can't grasp anything.

I'm going to move to Medford to a small trailer and try to fix this to sell. I can't drive next winter! I can't take care of this huge place. 

I have to get medical care and food!


If attacking her mother and lying through your entire marriage and lying about how her dad died and molesting your children .. YOU DON'T LOVE HER RICK JOHNSON
.YOU NEVER DID




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  1. BMarch 26, 2025 at 9:14 AM

    I got up to a wet bed this morning. A CT peed all over the pillows, mattress, head board.. cloth of course.

    I should have never been a pet owner.
    I haven't done right by any of them no matter how hard I try and I can't escape this guilt.
    I see Jak looking at me wondering why I left him!

    I see Bugs clinging to my arm begging to not be killed.
    I can't do this anymore.

    Please forgive me. I'm sick. I just don't understand life.
    I need it over.
    I must find the strength.
    How did you finally get brave enough Dan?

    I'm so sorry!

    I never accomplished anything!
    Everything I love hates me.
    Please let me die

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  2. BMarch 26, 2025 at 9:19 AM

    Your God is evil.

    I should have listened! My parents and Linda always told me how stupid and ugly and useless I was.
    No man ever treated me like anything but a worthless whore.
    My family hates me.
    Why didn't I understand that I was never going to be any good.. EVER.
    WHY did I try to have a family like everyone else.
    I'm not like everyone else!!

    I didn't deserve life
    I just wish I knew why!
    All I ever wanted was to be a good person.

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  3. BMarch 26, 2025 at 12:16 PM

    Got distracted cleaning cat piss out of my beautiful new bed and almost burned down the house

    Smoke pouring out the windowsi

    I can no longer take care of myself

    I have to die
    Because this hell won't end

    I can't breathe!

    I hate you.

    All of you

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  4. BMarch 26, 2025 at 1:34 PM

    No food today you stupid BITCH!

    I HATE MYSELF MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE!

    STUPID BITCH
    STUPID BITCH

    PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!

    These cats were my only thing I had? I've destroyed this house with smoke... It was pouring out the windows!

    I can't breathe

    Please make it STOP
    STOP
    STOP
    STOP

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  5. BMarch 26, 2025 at 1:37 PM

    I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO YOU HORRIBLE PEOPLE!!

    WHY HAVE YOU DONE THIS TO ME!!!!


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  6. BMarch 26, 2025 at 5:25 PM

    12 grueling hours. Didn't get a break. Almost done, let Dinky out of the room for 5 minutes and he gets in the room with the plants because all doors and windows were open.
    Knocks over the 6ft tall one wet of course all over the best part of the carpet.
    Back on your knees bitch!
    I'm cursed. No one goes through this shit every fucking day!!
    I don't get time to cook and it stinks so bad! Eyes burn
    I got distracted by the phone ringing! I can't shut it off!
    I can't get my blood oxygen level over
    92 with the inaler. My lungs were doing so good the doctor said.
    All the walls and drapes are greasyand stink.
    Another 10 seconds it would have all been on fire. Good thing I have an extra fry pan.
    I'm terrified of what I am going to accidentally do. I hurt so bad. Everything is bleeding. I had to take down all the plastic I put up separating rooms. Must have been on that ladder 50 times
    Happy it was warm
    Smoke poured out the window for an hour.

    I really m essed up

    Gotta go scrub carpet!

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  7. BMarch 26, 2025 at 5:27 PM

    The golden years!

    Please tell me why this is happening.
    I have to have some rest!
    I'm exhausted.
    Please tell me what to do

    Someone please listen

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  8. BMarch 26, 2025 at 5:29 PM

    I hope my mattress isn't ruined.

    I think Dinky is jealousW of the other catncat,
    Why now?!

    Fucking text won't work!

    GAWD

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  9. BApril 2, 2025 at 9:38 AM

    https://www.facebook.com/reel/1179592897068841?mibextid=rS40aB7S9Ucbxw6v

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